Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.
Proverbs 19:21
We all want to run ahead; we all find a passion in our heart. And if we have enough drive, nothing will stop our start.
I can see it in you, I can see God moving within you. I know you can do whatever your heart desires, but if you don’t allow God to lead, the path will be more difficult than He has planned for you.
How do I know, you may ask, because that was my route.
All my childhood, I was encouraged and told I could be whatever I wanted to be, and I fully believed that and I still do, just see that promise in a different way now. If you know me well enough, you know I’m driven and won’t stop until the project is complete. But even as driven as I am, things didn’t turn out as I first expected them.
My expectation was to be an actress, then to be a surgeon (neurosurgeon to be exact), then a broadcaster, and then a counselor.
“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” Proverbs 16:9
In each of these expectations I would plan out my future and what it should be like, but God would turn me from one direction to the next. He would use each of my choices to teach me what He had planned for me. Through college and circumstances my direction continually changed and looking back I can see how God continually used all things, the good and bad, for His purpose in my life.
The one consistent desire in my heart through every change was the desire to help others, to bring healing and hope to others.
In 2003, I began stepping out of my own way and willingly let God step ahead of me. Over the next 8 years I released my future to Him and He did a work in my heart that allowed to begin to see and feel his desire for me come to life. I began helping women heal and heed to His Will.
In 2011, He physically moved me to a path that would extend upon helping women and now move into hurting children as well. That leading allowed me see the whole of society in a totally different way and grew me over 8 years in more ways than I ever knew possible and in some ways that hurt more than I wanted. But in all the hurting, healing, and hoping, I was fulfilling the desires He had for me and I was fulfilling my childhood desires of helping and leading others to Him.
When I laid my life aside and picked up His plans for me, I was filled with more Joy than I could have ever expected. My dreams and desires were still there because His desires for me were always my main desires down deep within my heart. But my heart had to be broken wide open to truly be able to see His desires for me.
“Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.” Proverbs 16:3
Now I’m able to see God work out healing and hope in people all around me —friends, family, strangers— wherever I am, somehow through me, but all because of Him.
Since I have let Him lead, my desires are fulfilled through His plans, my heart is filled with Joy on each step He gives me to walk. I do whatever He desires to do because God has purposed me to.
You can be whatever you want to be as long as you lay yourself aside and let Him lead.
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